Thursday, December 17, 2009

Two pairs of pants

Two pairs of pants
And a chilis shirt
Because it’s cold outside
And
I
Can

Two pairs of pants
And a chili’s shirt
Because the reality is
I wanted to
And I don’t care what you think

You see
I am one of 8 kids

1
of 8

the oldest
shes the absent one
the second
shes the
“troubled” one
then my brother the
quiet one
my sister the lawyer
my brother the prima donna
then my twin the over achiever
me
and then the baby

so you see

I HAD to have a
Gimmick
A quirk
Something to make
me
special

And so I decided long ago
That I didn’t give a fuck

And not in that flashy
I’ma tell EVERYBODY
That
I don’t
Give a
FUCK

Kinda way

But in the way where I
Care so little
About what people think
Or have to say
That I never have to say
Anything
about it

You
Just
Know

And it’s not in that
Sloppy slovenly I’ma
Look like a bum all the time
Kinda
I don’t give
A fuck

But in the I see
Beauty through my own
Eyes and
Only I can judge it
Only I can see it
And I don’t
Care for your
Opinion

Ever.

And I
I am braver then most people I know
Even though I may not always see it
But I am
Comfortable
In my own skin
With my own choices
And with my own life

So when my sister (the lawyer) asks me
“are you wearing two pairs of pants
and a chili’s shirt?”

I say
“yes I am
because i
am red
hot”