In honor of our 2 year anniversary next week...the first poem i ever wrote for mike

“game over….or maybe just a time out…who knows” - JUNE 2008

I never thought
I could feel
This way
Again
Protective
And wanting
A desire and a right
To a man
Not a lover
That is the strangest part
Not a lover
Not even a kiss
It is so different
Then anything
I’ve ever been in
Before
Ever
And the desire to write
To put these feelings
To paper
Is intoxicating
It feels good at the time
But I know
I’ll regret it in the morning
When the hangover kicks in
Because I’ll hate
To see
My true feelings
Repeated back to me
In their purest form
My voice
In this secret I keep
That
This
Is my truest self
The parts of me
That make it to paper
If I ever loved you
There’s a piece somewhere
That I wrote for you
And here is yours
To be joined
With a small group of others
I have honored and loved
By putting the pieces of me
That belong to them
On pieces of paper
That now belong to the world
The other two
I’ll never be able to get rid of
I can only hope
The same for you
So here is the deal
I’ll keep the bangs
Till that hope
Is gone