I wonder

As I look at my children I wonder
Is this the right choice
Can he change
Is it worth it
And everyday my mind flips back and forth
And I wonder is it better for them for us not to be together
Then for us to be together
Can we work this out
I feel in my heart
That I just don’t know
But I can’t let my kids see me treated this way
And I can’t let them believe this is the way
You treat the people you say you love
And I wonder why god led me down this path
Or maybe it wasn’t god at all
Maybe it was just me
And I was being impatient
And not waiting
And not listenng
And should have known better
But didn’t and now we’re here
And I don’t know if I’m making the right choice
Except for when I pray to god to help me
The signs I get are the ones that
Make me think I should leave
And I’m making the right decision
This time
I hope
I wonder