My mom says I should write
But I can’t remember the last time
I put pen to paper to write something
besides a number or address
And since I spend a significant amount of my day in front of a computer screen
I’ll type
Thank you
It feels less personal
But it is more legible
My writing has progressively gotten worse since law school
Your brain gets better but your handwriting worse?
Eh, who knew
I believe this was all timing
When law school beat me down I had no safe harbor
No support of someone to say you’re not as dumb as your professor would have you think
Instead I went to a home where someone said I was
And I was a bad wife and mother
And law school made me bad at those other things
And those other things made me bad at law school
A sad circle when the reality was the opposite
I may not know everything about the law and never will
But I’m a good student and smart
I’m a great mother
And damn good wife
It’s so tragic that
While I was a good wife I never knew it
And he didn’t either
And we both found out this way
I’m not sure if I can ever forgive him for everything that has happened
Everything he has done
How badly I felt about myself for so long
All the lies he told
And keeps telling
It’s like he can’t stop.
Well, I can
And I do
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