after all that i just realized i have feelings for [him] and i just can't see him being with no one else...i just can't - lyfe jennings

i don't think this is a poem....but it maybe someday?

here we are
another day
another dollar i'm paying to be in summer school
working for the university
thats another blog
my husband and i got back together
i go up down
happy
and
panic attacks
trying to figure out
was this the best choice?
someone
who thinks he loves me
told me that he would fight
the way sammy fought for me
and would change too if he got me back
because i would be
"a shitty thing to lose"
(i'm pretty sure it was a compliment)
i am horribly insecure
with my husband
i need him to tell
me
i'm the best
and he only wants me
i need to be told
i love you
a thousand times again
i need to have my ass kissed
for him
to show me
that he really loves me
and won't hurt me again
i'm sure this isn't healthy
but i just feel so insecure
whats funny is
outside of this
new/old relationship
i'm the most confident i've been in a long long time
i'm just weak for him
i just love him so
much
it hurts sometimes
no really
physically hurts.....
i'll pray more.