i deserve to have my ass kissed....or an open letter to my husband

the reality is I'm worth it sammy. i'm worth being waited for. i don't care what you say. i'm a good woman and if you cared at all about me or our marriage you would give me the next 10 months and you would prove yourself. and you would bring me flowers everyweek and take me to dinner once a week and you'd call and ask how i'm doing and feeling if i need any help with the boys. if you really loved me you'd do those things. you wouldn't think of dating or talking to anyone but me i'm your wife and you would know that i'm vulnerable and weak after everything we've been through and you talking to other women and exchanging photos iwth them and locking me out of the phone bill for what ever reason only makes me more suspicious and believe you less and if you wanted things to be better you would know not to do those things. you'd kiss my butt because i'm worth it and our marriage is worth and our kids are worth it. but you don't see it that way. and that's fine. and you know what i'm not broken....our marriage is broken i'm broken in our marriage and i need to get better to be in this relationship but there's someone somewhere who will value me the way you never did and will respect my need for a year of time to get better the way that you don't and i won't have to get better for that relationship because i already am. you broke me if you want me you have to help me fix it.