now....

Alright, so after finding out about the hubby's new girl i started to think maybe i'm not ready to call this thing quits. so i've been talking with him and spending some time and things are going ok. so i tell him you know i'm not ready for this to be over and can we keep trying. and to me that means we don't see other people but i live out my lease, i have a year before we get back together, i still have a bunch of stuff to work through you know. and he was like NO that 's it NO i won't wait a year for you. and i was like you don't think our marriage is worth it that I'M worth it? and he was like no i'm not gonna wait for year for something that has no guarentees. i feel crushed but liberated. it showed me that he's still as selfish and greedy as ever and everything has to be the way he wants it all the time. so.......my marriage is over. sadness.